You usher me to sit and discuss who I am. And this is who I am, so here I am.
I am everything I said I was.
I can’t control or put a price on how much Time or Energy you have dedicated these past years to find me But for what it’s worth, I am glad you have wasted
part of your life to stop living,
to get to discover me in more ways than before and I simply adore the woman
you’ve grown to be because it’s who you are meant to be and the more you become the more I feel like me. Standing here today you tower over your present and cast a shadow on your past.
You were a child born from a sky of burning ash and weightless Phoenix’s feather
falling to earth at a rate only Mother Nature knows.. Should you ever hit the ground of anything.. make sure it is yourself, not the predetermined distance of somebody else.
Remember to compare what you observe and what you know to concur whether it is nothing more than a simple human flaw. . Caught and lost in “fact” and misunderstandings that run wild with imagination. Recall the contradictions and question how accurate can we truly be of reality .
And in all this insanity, Your choice to sacrifice years of life in order to address what was hurt or missing from within the skin of you, as you are an imperfect, human. the truth is, and what they cannot comprehend is the descent you’ve experienced from the height of heaven into the depth of hell… only to rise and begin again .:.and again.
Scars are left behind to make layers thicker. Do not ignore what is causing your pain or place blame but truly take the time required to mend the holes of your ego, fix the flaws in your mind-frame and never be afraid to admit it is actually you that may need to change.
In doing so, Adding inconspicuous aspects of existence you grow Into the breadth of who you are as a being while living, a metamorphosis occurs with each renewal instead of losing yourself in the shallow end of what it is to be human- living simply because you’re alive.
and stand on your own two feet. Defying gravity and maneuvering the atoms which bind your mind to your brain, the lightless of your step in the darkest of days
And When you feel the hype in your heart start to change to a rhythm that refuses to beat
and you start to truly believe, in all forms of that you cannot breathe
If and when latitude and longitude no longer serve the seas with meaning
escape on a rocket-ship to outer space where time is not phased by the molecules oscillating in the world’s atomic clock. Float as a speck of dust in darkness, uncontrolled and full of possibility.
And when you feel anxiety creeping as you tumble out into vastness, it is okay to hold your breath as you’ll find in knowing
that you simply need
to just be.
lost to an unseeable horizon
where sky is no longer the limit
thought holds no bounds
and we may traverse the unexplored edges of our minds.
And, if then the universe weighs heavy and deep, transport yourself to your dreams and drift to a place of fantasy. Here you will find you can be lulled to sleep by counting sheep as they are led to slaughter Their bodies scattered and decaying back into the same place over and over…
in a far away land that seems so familiar. Haunted by their desperate cries, dazed into distant memories of a past life.
You wake to the thoughts of needing to move in a different direction from the perceptions and manifestations of humanity.
You should have no laws or limits that are dictated into the very history of existence. A creature whose purpose is to live and do nothing more than die cannot ever be more than a man trapped by the perplexity of proving earth is round. Dedicating his life to viewing the horizon of just water and sky.
when a society is finally to consider perhaps its all in our minds,
well then life can finally start.
So Keep building on the washed up pebbles of the pieces of glass that broke when all those who smashed your heart or your hopes. you’ll be on this planet long enough to become a rock, your presence forever written into earths history with hard stone. Transform into an immortal state, where pieces of you will always have a place. Become that which even when degraded and used can be found renewed. One that cannot be moved by another human being, nor one which can be claimed from the top of the highest ridge of your existence. You are more than you were before
a mountain of a woman. Looking forward, refusing to go back.
You expected “someone a bit different.”
ironic after all this time.. “n’it?”
I grin and shrug.
“appearances can be deceiving, s’all.”
Fixated To Free 